Wednesday, October 31, 2007

mon dieu! ahhhha i am so so so (((: j'aime Paris!


voila! the almighty eiffel tower(:

haha some phrases that i rmb from years ago of french -.-
je suis tres belle et j'adore la crême glacée de chocolat! go figure(:

au revoir singapore! salut france, ici je viens(:

anyhow, today is halloween. so HAPPPY HULLLLOWEEEEEN dear all!


thinking is a tiring tiring affair;

posted @ 11:01 PM


Tuesday, October 30, 2007




halloweeen is in two days! ahhhh!(:


itsy witsy spider is climbing up the spout;







posted @ 12:00 AM


Sunday, October 28, 2007

its thinking day! so amidst the simple beauty of nature, ive done some senseless thinking. come along now as we proceed to see what ive been thinking about.

what is fear? a distressing emotion? what causes fear? why d'we fear?

ive got lotsa inane fear that've screwed this life qte abit. for starters ive feared the darkness ever since i dunno whn. pondered several times as to why it is so but ive found no reasons. and no its not because of the bogeyman -.- after the activities today, realisation hit me tht fear is really kinda senseless. aint it? i mean we create this fear ourselves, we control what we fear dont we? at least i think i have somewhat some control over what i fear.

fear of the future, fear of bugs, fear of failure, fear of nothingness. and perhaps, just perhaps, the most feared of all would be death? because what can possibly be worse than death? dyou feel anything after you die? ahha i guess we probably wont know. somebody told me that the biggest fear could be taking the risk to be alive, the risk to be alive and express what we really are. ah thats a good one. that sounds more scary than death to me. uh huh.

be true to your heart goes the song. but how true can you be when fear keeps you back? fear stops one from progressing on. fear ruins friendships. fear causes misery, sweaty palms, sleepless nights, palpitating hearts, nauseous-ness et cetera. it sucks!:/

looking at fear right in the eye and giving it one tight slap sure sounds easy. how much courage must one muster to master fear? i'd say alot alot. i might seem brave but im really a scaredycat:/ heh. so what happens after you stop fearing anything and everything else? what happens after you decide to put a stop to all these fears and move on bravely? is it true that only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live? yes no maybe, i dont know. whn i muster enough courage to try i'll tell you the aftermath. that'll be soon. i hope(:

gahh im bored with this mindless typing already. blahh. lets hope my voice comes back before op(:





it'll have been a different outcome;

posted @ 9:11 PM


Saturday, October 27, 2007

this is what i do when i cant sleep.

posted @ 11:59 PM




gahhh. i made the drawings into a paper bag. haha! what a productive night -.- ohwell.

had alot of stuff i wanted to rant about earlier on, but the apology settled everything and yay! we're on talking terms again(: yesyes.

the cab uncle was a tad prickly:/ wanted to scream at him. how am i supposed to know whre nus is? like who's the one driving here lah? tsk. he still say the one at jalanbesar isit?! blahh! wanted to say no lah at woodlands ah! kns. but still managed to get there after making lotsa phone calls and asking alot of people for directions. hurrrr! never trust stubborn old men! concert was fantabulous and was a little delirious after. yx says i looked like i was drunk. haha i felt drunk but im sober! i wanna play starwars, bahhhh. and we spent lotsa time trying to figure out which way to go after we got out from nus. haha! and trust hl to tell me that tanah merah is very near clementi. ehh! im not as silly as that hokay. i rmb tanah merah is whr you change to go airport. hah see(:

had a breathtaking view of the moon on my way home. so prettaye and so humongous! haha. i shall go bask in moonshine. night world.



pretty much missing a little of everything;

posted @ 11:58 PM


Friday, October 26, 2007

the big round moon shines ever so brightly that the whole estate looks really shiney and kinda foggy. it reminds me of the boy sitting on the moon and fishing, i think its the dreamworks logo or sth, cept that that one is a crescent moon. haha whatever. flufflyclouds blocks the stars away though. when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true. im gettting some pretty good songs on shuffle tonight (((:

aqua gets me uber hyper! im a barbie girl lol! ahhha tt'll remind mom of the huge bag of barbies up in my cupboard. and and wth! there's this "i am cow" song by arrogant worms that is darn spastic! go see the lyrics and you'll get what i mean -.- i am super amazed by the player tonight. all the queer silly and retarded ttm songs are playing. haha it'll confirm cheeer anyone up(: come find me if you need some cheering up tonight! share my folders with you. hohoho! berber i hope you like that song!(:


the rhythm of this trembling heart; is beating like a drum

posted @ 11:27 PM


Thursday, October 25, 2007

im in love with this song!(:

空气里躲着什么　
有点浪漫的心动
我偷偷看你　
你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么　
好像变得很不同
站在你身边　
这一切都好宽阔

我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我　
静静的就足够
你也在等着我　
静静的温柔
就这样手牵手　
静静的看着天空

心里面藏着什么　
你只想要让我懂
原来我的梦　
也就是你的梦
纸条上写了什么　
我好想要听你说
让字字句句　
充满我们的笑容

永远要记得
那天彼此许下的承诺
瞬间点亮的火花　
是我们的拥有

我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我　
静静的就足够
你也在等着我　
静静的温柔
就这样手牵手　
静静的看着天空
静静的手牵手　
是最简单的梦


lets sleep under the stars;
with the moon keeping watch over us

posted @ 9:21 PM


Wednesday, October 24, 2007


im mortified by myself. veryvery mortified. hahah! ohwell(: had a super loooong day with presentations and more presentations. fruit salad was well received though, kinda. at least i liked it alot:D and i wasnt late today! (not that i turn up late everytime) hehh just that ive beeen missing the bus alot for the past few days:/ talking about bus rides, my mp3 died on me. relying on books to get through the torturous rides. ahah and im suddenly reminded of everlasting. waste bus seats only eh? haha!

gahhh! dawned upon me that we're in the midst of our holidays. doesnt really feel like the holidays though. c'est la vie mon ami. what to do what to do? haha go learn how to draw nice suns and sunflowers? vampire sun -.- diao ttm!


you make me happy when skies are grey;

posted @ 11:46 PM


Monday, October 22, 2007


I could be brown,
I could be blue,
I could be violet sky!
I could be hurtful,
I could be purple,
I could be anything you like!
Gotta be green,
Gotta be mean,
Gotta be everything more!
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

mika made my day(:

it dont have to make no sense to you at all;

posted @ 9:07 PM


Sunday, October 21, 2007


peedoubleyou is hell, seemingly interminable. someone alleviate this martyrdom! hurrr.

had a fantastically superb dinner with the family though(: reminiscing about the good ol days while enjoying good food and blah. ohh and guess what? ive apparently been to stockholm sweden and lotsa oth parts of europe whn i was younger. cept that i grouped all of these places under norway:/ haha! forgive the lil young un for being so silly yea. lol(:

toffuu was yummymumkins and oh how i wished there was more soup! i miss drinking soup. uh huh uh huh. icecream makes me ecstatic and there was good music for today too. my favourite oldies. im an oldie at heart(: mohohoho! but i realise that they're are all kinda, er, soppy and melancholic. go chk out the lyrics for them, tennessee waltz, sad movie, end of the world, sealed with a kiss...hahah. it irks me to see that the lyrics are depressing. but! the melodies are all nice(: momma wants to go karaoke-ing! whooots! lets go sing till the cows come home~



i need you like a heart needs a beat;

posted @ 10:20 PM


Saturday, October 20, 2007

love, a game you play?

feeling kinda jaded by recent activities. but death at a funeral was wonderfully and capriciously comical(: there were like zero souls in the theatre cept for sis et moi plus another three people? guffawed and chuckled like nobody's business. seriously cracked us up! i think we've all inherited mom's cackle. sis is starting to sound a lot like mom whn she laughs:/

today was an exceptionally retarded day out with the hippo and a retarded soul. did lotsa retarded things and bought some awfully retarded stuff. haha! come to think abt it, i bought most of the stuff.

grampa's death anniversary tmr. bittersweet nostalgia. ohwell, we've all gotta move on dont we? gahhh, im gonna be dead meat for violin mrw:/ blahblah. somnolent ttm.

these words are my own, from my heart flown; i love you

posted @ 9:11 PM


Thursday, October 18, 2007

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY XIUQI DEAREST!

the pool was kinda tranquil yet chilly today. goosebumps were still coming up after three laps. hohoo. ohwells. poured really hard after the swim and off to town to do some stuff with seesta! en route to xq's house i got lost. heh, buses baffles me(: but other than getting drenched and a nearly-falling-flat-on-my-butt split second, i managed to reach her house safe and sound all by myself. whooo!(:

peeektures speaks a thousand words so see for yourself.


chicken little without green specs!


cheesecake with tt really thin layer of choc on top (u guys know what i mean.)


bj pose!


happpythreee(:


rachel's really geeeky pair of specs:/

eh you must continue hugging chicken little and the pig to sleep ar! haha(: no space on your bed also must squeeeeze! lots of beeeyootiful girls in the lyrics of songs heard today. minimum three. uh huh. budden again i think i should stop touching the mp3. kinda going deaf in one ear. mohohoo! i can still see very well though!(: ahhha but im bewildered, baffled, befuddled! some things i'll nver understand. gahh. off to sleep(:


infiltrated and still etched deeply in my mind;

posted @ 11:50 PM


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

say yay! my laptop is finally finally fixed. but, im so not used to it anymore. hehheh ohwells. all that matters is that my pictures and songs and docs are back. whhooots! dohnuts and eggtarts made me reaally hyper(: lol! goood foood, goood walk and some weird frog. haha.

ooh man, just found out that the hawker near my house razed to ground last night:( thats like my childhood hawker centre. no more favourite porridge and favourite bakchormee. oh my:/ the whole hawker cntre! blahhh. did smell some burning stuff last night while pw-ing but didnt occur to me that it would be raging fire. hurrr.

mp3's been shuffling some christmas songs my way. the bestest season of the year(: toffeenutlatte, snow, green/reds, prettycards and a whole lot of xmas carols! whopppee. anyway do come for our xmas concert yo! hahah!

all i want for christmas is you;

posted @ 8:58 PM


Monday, October 15, 2007

do you ever wonder if its possible to converse with someone through your dreams? i do wonder. its a rather bizarre thought. any answers for me? hmmm.

do scold me the next time i say i wanna drink coffee okay. i had a cup today. haha no surprises what im going through now:/ craving for some dohhnuts to neutralise this queasiness. lets hope i get some tmr(:

dream a little dream of me;

posted @ 8:37 PM


Saturday, October 13, 2007

everybody's been asking if im getting enough rest. aye do i really look that exhausted? i guess im pretty much tired out and im trying my best to catch some sleep but the prob is, its running away pretty quickly from me! haha. the past fifteen hours of sleep didnt seem to have much effect:/ had a gi-normous mass of queer thoughts and dreams though. i even managed to count the number of times mom peeped in the chk up on me (twas ard 5 times) hahah i guess i looked sound asleep(:

feeling oddly old. in fact everybody at home seems to have aged in the past week. e week flew by but somehow it still has the, it felt like forever feeling. hurr, weird huh? i foresee more rainclouds and thunderstorms in the coming weeks. rainy season ah. feeling kinda famished. weight's climbing up the scales slowly(:

you can't catch me.

posted @ 8:44 PM





i'll never be a carpenter!


hehh like seriously man. i'll prob end up having some broken nails, lotsa splinters and a sore thumb. haha! but but! i did manage to put tgt my new cupboard hokay! ahhha(: great sense of achievement. sis did help out alot too. anw, pretty plasters over the splinters looks darn sweet. lol! i always heal faster with pretty plasters(:


pending trip to paris:D depends on the pw schedule. ehhheh im a happy kid now. lalala(:

posted @ 12:11 AM


Thursday, October 11, 2007

eeeyer the pain's gettting qte unbearable. someone come take it away:/

tskk ive been eating alright but this irritating blahh just refuses to stop harassing me. and now i cant eat much because it gets worse if i eat too much. to eat or not to eat? ahhha so irritating. i will not end up in the hospital because of you, so go away! pain pain go away!

haha the pain's driving me nuts. blogging to distract myself from it. whoooots! peee double u-ing in a mo. hhmmph this means no more naps, i miss my pillows already. they're so comfy they take e pain temporarily away yo. hurr. i wanna eat e mango but mom refuses to lemme eat the mango. refusing to lemme eat is alright but she still had to come say "eh the mango's darn sweet, its such a pity you cant taste it." so horrible right!

gahh. my stomach is a torture! you wanna swap wimme? mohohoho(:

posted @ 7:00 PM


Wednesday, October 10, 2007

the pillowphile was harrassed by alphonses today
the pillowphile had a nice shoulder to use today
the pillowphile thinks that food in school is not for the sick
the pillowphile got scolded for losing weight and getting sick (tsk!)

the pillowphile is hungry now
but there is no nice food
the pillowphile is pw-ing
but the group's talking in circles

i love pillows. im a pillowphile!(:

lets go to sleeep.

posted @ 10:30 PM


Monday, October 08, 2007


Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby




posted @ 7:01 PM


Sunday, October 07, 2007

two jabs on the butt and four days of mc. bahh. being sick sucks totally:/

posted @ 6:40 PM


Saturday, October 06, 2007

thank you mommy.

oh well here goes. not trying to be funny or anything but just had to let it go. cos pent up feelings aint doing me any good, uh huh.

sounds a lil cliche but im still gonna get it off my chest. sorry for the pain, sorry sorry for my actions, words or whatever that might have been done to hurt you. never measured the consequences that they might bring and so yea created a messy business. duibuiqi. not sure how you feel but tts how i feel anyway. ive done wrong and im feeling bad abt it. hah okay so im sorrry for the ten thousandth time alright!

gahh, okay mom. i love you alot alot. thanks for talking and not probing. thanks for your weird weird analogies and for making me cry. and thank you for believing in me and giving me all your support. i was listening. really. so do get well soon alright! and stop talking as if you're gonna die anytime soon cos i will really breakdown if tt happens. all three of us would. you've been the greatest mom for all of us. yea though we dont tell you how much we love you and though we always show the ugh face when you hug us really tight, but you should still know that we love you and laopa yea? yesyes. we're gonna be alright.

love's like water; trying to cut it away would be like cutting at water with a knife. it'll never be a clean cut.

makes sense? haha! moms are really great sources for weird analogies huh?(: gastric gastric:/ dinner's gonna come up soon i think.

posted @ 1:15 AM


Thursday, October 04, 2007

my life is damn dramaaatic i tell you. dramma mama to the max! ahh cant be bothered to elaborate. but today was really a "get fat day". buffets for every meal. in between that was all the drama and yeah. hah dad's really point blank straightforward luh! and uncle larsen was really, hah, funny. im also really really glad to still be alive cos my sisters are really really really reckless drivers. my heart was in my throat alr. lol(:

no more alr lo! dtt how how?! you have to be very very patient with me tmr okay. haha(:




wincing in pain with every step i take;

posted @ 10:11 PM


Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Running

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

i was swimming and this song popped right in. haha havent heard it in eons! had a rather fascinating afternoon(: staring with wide-eyed fascination. blahahah!

im missing the word pompous, my all time favourite. no sleeep tonighty:/ we're gonna go seee some big birds fly again yo. ughh why's the flight in the weeee hours of the morning? bleahhh.

posted @ 5:14 PM


Tuesday, October 02, 2007

muahaha! boy am i glad you're flying home sooon!(: even though its just for the short weekend. heheh.

shopping with my happy pill was all smiles and nth else. shopping spreee, waffles, yakkity yak, cofffeee and haha someone weird(: lunch was good. dinner was great. company was exceptionally amusing:D haha! lets go again soon alrighty. mohohoho!

posted @ 11:00 PM




Stuck

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

I ain't tripping
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You've kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I've tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies

I ain't tripping
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you.

will be home soon(: got the tickets already.

posted @ 11:08 AM


Monday, October 01, 2007

yes no maybe?

whooo! i suddenly have the urge to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. someone go geddit! ahhha cos the copy i have really really sucks. bleahhh. oh well. i feel like ive turned into a tourist these few days. hahaha! singapore is kinda interesting actually. and being a student really rocks. haha! cos we get complimentary tickets and really cheap concession tickets(: there's been lotsa hustle and bustle up in there lately:/ its killing all my brain cells! rahhhh. btw, phy's house really induces funny and weird dreams. lol!

went to the doc with sis and he says ive got really strong heartbeats. mohohoo(: i should get back to swimming soon. havent swum since the sept hols. and its alr october! someone downstair's singing "red and yellow and pink and green. purple and orange and blue." lol! i just sang that song today! ahhha just too bad that there wasnt any rainbows in the skies. but the sky's really pretty tonight(: ahhha i wanna go watch the sunrise:/

a sneak peek ard the house tells me its home alone again. bleahhh! tired yet not sleepy. thinking thinking thinking is not a solution. try asking instead. you'll never know if you never try. conversations in e mind aint gonna help much either, cos you nv know wht e person's thinking of. blahh, i shall go to sleep. goodnight.

i dont know. can you repeat your question?

posted @ 10:35 PM

Wednesday, October 31, 2007
mon dieu! ahhhha i am so so so (((: j'aime Paris!


voila! the almighty eiffel tower(:

haha some phrases that i rmb from years ago of french -.-
je suis tres belle et j'adore la crême glacée de chocolat! go figure(:

au revoir singapore! salut france, ici je viens(:

anyhow, today is halloween. so HAPPPY HULLLLOWEEEEEN dear all!


thinking is a tiring tiring affair;


---11:01 PM---

Tuesday, October 30, 2007



halloweeen is in two days! ahhhh!(:


itsy witsy spider is climbing up the spout;








---12:00 AM---

Sunday, October 28, 2007
its thinking day! so amidst the simple beauty of nature, ive done some senseless thinking. come along now as we proceed to see what ive been thinking about.

what is fear? a distressing emotion? what causes fear? why d'we fear?

ive got lotsa inane fear that've screwed this life qte abit. for starters ive feared the darkness ever since i dunno whn. pondered several times as to why it is so but ive found no reasons. and no its not because of the bogeyman -.- after the activities today, realisation hit me tht fear is really kinda senseless. aint it? i mean we create this fear ourselves, we control what we fear dont we? at least i think i have somewhat some control over what i fear.

fear of the future, fear of bugs, fear of failure, fear of nothingness. and perhaps, just perhaps, the most feared of all would be death? because what can possibly be worse than death? dyou feel anything after you die? ahha i guess we probably wont know. somebody told me that the biggest fear could be taking the risk to be alive, the risk to be alive and express what we really are. ah thats a good one. that sounds more scary than death to me. uh huh.

be true to your heart goes the song. but how true can you be when fear keeps you back? fear stops one from progressing on. fear ruins friendships. fear causes misery, sweaty palms, sleepless nights, palpitating hearts, nauseous-ness et cetera. it sucks!:/

looking at fear right in the eye and giving it one tight slap sure sounds easy. how much courage must one muster to master fear? i'd say alot alot. i might seem brave but im really a scaredycat:/ heh. so what happens after you stop fearing anything and everything else? what happens after you decide to put a stop to all these fears and move on bravely? is it true that only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live? yes no maybe, i dont know. whn i muster enough courage to try i'll tell you the aftermath. that'll be soon. i hope(:

gahh im bored with this mindless typing already. blahh. lets hope my voice comes back before op(:





it'll have been a different outcome;


---9:11 PM---

Saturday, October 27, 2007
this is what i do when i cant sleep.


---11:59 PM---

gahhh. i made the drawings into a paper bag. haha! what a productive night -.- ohwell.

had alot of stuff i wanted to rant about earlier on, but the apology settled everything and yay! we're on talking terms again(: yesyes.

the cab uncle was a tad prickly:/ wanted to scream at him. how am i supposed to know whre nus is? like who's the one driving here lah? tsk. he still say the one at jalanbesar isit?! blahh! wanted to say no lah at woodlands ah! kns. but still managed to get there after making lotsa phone calls and asking alot of people for directions. hurrrr! never trust stubborn old men! concert was fantabulous and was a little delirious after. yx says i looked like i was drunk. haha i felt drunk but im sober! i wanna play starwars, bahhhh. and we spent lotsa time trying to figure out which way to go after we got out from nus. haha! and trust hl to tell me that tanah merah is very near clementi. ehh! im not as silly as that hokay. i rmb tanah merah is whr you change to go airport. hah see(:

had a breathtaking view of the moon on my way home. so prettaye and so humongous! haha. i shall go bask in moonshine. night world.



pretty much missing a little of everything;


---11:58 PM---

Friday, October 26, 2007
the big round moon shines ever so brightly that the whole estate looks really shiney and kinda foggy. it reminds me of the boy sitting on the moon and fishing, i think its the dreamworks logo or sth, cept that that one is a crescent moon. haha whatever. flufflyclouds blocks the stars away though. when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true. im gettting some pretty good songs on shuffle tonight (((:

aqua gets me uber hyper! im a barbie girl lol! ahhha tt'll remind mom of the huge bag of barbies up in my cupboard. and and wth! there's this "i am cow" song by arrogant worms that is darn spastic! go see the lyrics and you'll get what i mean -.- i am super amazed by the player tonight. all the queer silly and retarded ttm songs are playing. haha it'll confirm cheeer anyone up(: come find me if you need some cheering up tonight! share my folders with you. hohoho! berber i hope you like that song!(:


the rhythm of this trembling heart; is beating like a drum


---11:27 PM---

Thursday, October 25, 2007
im in love with this song!(:

空气里躲着什么　
有点浪漫的心动
我偷偷看你　
你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么　
好像变得很不同
站在你身边　
这一切都好宽阔

我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我　
静静的就足够
你也在等着我　
静静的温柔
就这样手牵手　
静静的看着天空

心里面藏着什么　
你只想要让我懂
原来我的梦　
也就是你的梦
纸条上写了什么　
我好想要听你说
让字字句句　
充满我们的笑容

永远要记得
那天彼此许下的承诺
瞬间点亮的火花　
是我们的拥有

我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我　
静静的就足够
你也在等着我　
静静的温柔
就这样手牵手　
静静的看着天空
静静的手牵手　
是最简单的梦


lets sleep under the stars;
with the moon keeping watch over us


---9:21 PM---

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

im mortified by myself. veryvery mortified. hahah! ohwell(: had a super loooong day with presentations and more presentations. fruit salad was well received though, kinda. at least i liked it alot:D and i wasnt late today! (not that i turn up late everytime) hehh just that ive beeen missing the bus alot for the past few days:/ talking about bus rides, my mp3 died on me. relying on books to get through the torturous rides. ahah and im suddenly reminded of everlasting. waste bus seats only eh? haha!

gahhh! dawned upon me that we're in the midst of our holidays. doesnt really feel like the holidays though. c'est la vie mon ami. what to do what to do? haha go learn how to draw nice suns and sunflowers? vampire sun -.- diao ttm!


you make me happy when skies are grey;


---11:46 PM---

Monday, October 22, 2007

I could be brown,
I could be blue,
I could be violet sky!
I could be hurtful,
I could be purple,
I could be anything you like!
Gotta be green,
Gotta be mean,
Gotta be everything more!
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

mika made my day(:

it dont have to make no sense to you at all;


---9:07 PM---

Sunday, October 21, 2007

peedoubleyou is hell, seemingly interminable. someone alleviate this martyrdom! hurrr.

had a fantastically superb dinner with the family though(: reminiscing about the good ol days while enjoying good food and blah. ohh and guess what? ive apparently been to stockholm sweden and lotsa oth parts of europe whn i was younger. cept that i grouped all of these places under norway:/ haha! forgive the lil young un for being so silly yea. lol(:

toffuu was yummymumkins and oh how i wished there was more soup! i miss drinking soup. uh huh uh huh. icecream makes me ecstatic and there was good music for today too. my favourite oldies. im an oldie at heart(: mohohoho! but i realise that they're are all kinda, er, soppy and melancholic. go chk out the lyrics for them, tennessee waltz, sad movie, end of the world, sealed with a kiss...hahah. it irks me to see that the lyrics are depressing. but! the melodies are all nice(: momma wants to go karaoke-ing! whooots! lets go sing till the cows come home~



i need you like a heart needs a beat;


---10:20 PM---

Saturday, October 20, 2007

love, a game you play?

feeling kinda jaded by recent activities. but death at a funeral was wonderfully and capriciously comical(: there were like zero souls in the theatre cept for sis et moi plus another three people? guffawed and chuckled like nobody's business. seriously cracked us up! i think we've all inherited mom's cackle. sis is starting to sound a lot like mom whn she laughs:/

today was an exceptionally retarded day out with the hippo and a retarded soul. did lotsa retarded things and bought some awfully retarded stuff. haha! come to think abt it, i bought most of the stuff.

grampa's death anniversary tmr. bittersweet nostalgia. ohwell, we've all gotta move on dont we? gahhh, im gonna be dead meat for violin mrw:/ blahblah. somnolent ttm.

these words are my own, from my heart flown; i love you

---9:11 PM---

Thursday, October 18, 2007
HAPPPY BIRTHDAY XIUQI DEAREST!

the pool was kinda tranquil yet chilly today. goosebumps were still coming up after three laps. hohoo. ohwells. poured really hard after the swim and off to town to do some stuff with seesta! en route to xq's house i got lost. heh, buses baffles me(: but other than getting drenched and a nearly-falling-flat-on-my-butt split second, i managed to reach her house safe and sound all by myself. whooo!(:

peeektures speaks a thousand words so see for yourself.


chicken little without green specs!


cheesecake with tt really thin layer of choc on top (u guys know what i mean.)


bj pose!


happpythreee(:


rachel's really geeeky pair of specs:/

eh you must continue hugging chicken little and the pig to sleep ar! haha(: no space on your bed also must squeeeeze! lots of beeeyootiful girls in the lyrics of songs heard today. minimum three. uh huh. budden again i think i should stop touching the mp3. kinda going deaf in one ear. mohohoo! i can still see very well though!(: ahhha but im bewildered, baffled, befuddled! some things i'll nver understand. gahh. off to sleep(:


infiltrated and still etched deeply in my mind;


---11:50 PM---

Wednesday, October 17, 2007
say yay! my laptop is finally finally fixed. but, im so not used to it anymore. hehheh ohwells. all that matters is that my pictures and songs and docs are back. whhooots! dohnuts and eggtarts made me reaally hyper(: lol! goood foood, goood walk and some weird frog. haha.

ooh man, just found out that the hawker near my house razed to ground last night:( thats like my childhood hawker centre. no more favourite porridge and favourite bakchormee. oh my:/ the whole hawker cntre! blahhh. did smell some burning stuff last night while pw-ing but didnt occur to me that it would be raging fire. hurrr.

mp3's been shuffling some christmas songs my way. the bestest season of the year(: toffeenutlatte, snow, green/reds, prettycards and a whole lot of xmas carols! whopppee. anyway do come for our xmas concert yo! hahah!

all i want for christmas is you;


---8:58 PM---

Monday, October 15, 2007
do you ever wonder if its possible to converse with someone through your dreams? i do wonder. its a rather bizarre thought. any answers for me? hmmm.

do scold me the next time i say i wanna drink coffee okay. i had a cup today. haha no surprises what im going through now:/ craving for some dohhnuts to neutralise this queasiness. lets hope i get some tmr(:

dream a little dream of me;


---8:37 PM---

Saturday, October 13, 2007
everybody's been asking if im getting enough rest. aye do i really look that exhausted? i guess im pretty much tired out and im trying my best to catch some sleep but the prob is, its running away pretty quickly from me! haha. the past fifteen hours of sleep didnt seem to have much effect:/ had a gi-normous mass of queer thoughts and dreams though. i even managed to count the number of times mom peeped in the chk up on me (twas ard 5 times) hahah i guess i looked sound asleep(:

feeling oddly old. in fact everybody at home seems to have aged in the past week. e week flew by but somehow it still has the, it felt like forever feeling. hurr, weird huh? i foresee more rainclouds and thunderstorms in the coming weeks. rainy season ah. feeling kinda famished. weight's climbing up the scales slowly(:

you can't catch me.


---8:44 PM---

i'll never be a carpenter!


hehh like seriously man. i'll prob end up having some broken nails, lotsa splinters and a sore thumb. haha! but but! i did manage to put tgt my new cupboard hokay! ahhha(: great sense of achievement. sis did help out alot too. anw, pretty plasters over the splinters looks darn sweet. lol! i always heal faster with pretty plasters(:


pending trip to paris:D depends on the pw schedule. ehhheh im a happy kid now. lalala(:


---12:11 AM---

Thursday, October 11, 2007
eeeyer the pain's gettting qte unbearable. someone come take it away:/

tskk ive been eating alright but this irritating blahh just refuses to stop harassing me. and now i cant eat much because it gets worse if i eat too much. to eat or not to eat? ahhha so irritating. i will not end up in the hospital because of you, so go away! pain pain go away!

haha the pain's driving me nuts. blogging to distract myself from it. whoooots! peee double u-ing in a mo. hhmmph this means no more naps, i miss my pillows already. they're so comfy they take e pain temporarily away yo. hurr. i wanna eat e mango but mom refuses to lemme eat the mango. refusing to lemme eat is alright but she still had to come say "eh the mango's darn sweet, its such a pity you cant taste it." so horrible right!

gahh. my stomach is a torture! you wanna swap wimme? mohohoho(:


---7:00 PM---

Wednesday, October 10, 2007
the pillowphile was harrassed by alphonses today
the pillowphile had a nice shoulder to use today
the pillowphile thinks that food in school is not for the sick
the pillowphile got scolded for losing weight and getting sick (tsk!)

the pillowphile is hungry now
but there is no nice food
the pillowphile is pw-ing
but the group's talking in circles

i love pillows. im a pillowphile!(:

lets go to sleeep.


---10:30 PM---

Monday, October 08, 2007

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby





---7:01 PM---

Sunday, October 07, 2007
two jabs on the butt and four days of mc. bahh. being sick sucks totally:/


---6:40 PM---

Saturday, October 06, 2007
thank you mommy.

oh well here goes. not trying to be funny or anything but just had to let it go. cos pent up feelings aint doing me any good, uh huh.

sounds a lil cliche but im still gonna get it off my chest. sorry for the pain, sorry sorry for my actions, words or whatever that might have been done to hurt you. never measured the consequences that they might bring and so yea created a messy business. duibuiqi. not sure how you feel but tts how i feel anyway. ive done wrong and im feeling bad abt it. hah okay so im sorrry for the ten thousandth time alright!

gahh, okay mom. i love you alot alot. thanks for talking and not probing. thanks for your weird weird analogies and for making me cry. and thank you for believing in me and giving me all your support. i was listening. really. so do get well soon alright! and stop talking as if you're gonna die anytime soon cos i will really breakdown if tt happens. all three of us would. you've been the greatest mom for all of us. yea though we dont tell you how much we love you and though we always show the ugh face when you hug us really tight, but you should still know that we love you and laopa yea? yesyes. we're gonna be alright.

love's like water; trying to cut it away would be like cutting at water with a knife. it'll never be a clean cut.

makes sense? haha! moms are really great sources for weird analogies huh?(: gastric gastric:/ dinner's gonna come up soon i think.


---1:15 AM---

Thursday, October 04, 2007
my life is damn dramaaatic i tell you. dramma mama to the max! ahh cant be bothered to elaborate. but today was really a "get fat day". buffets for every meal. in between that was all the drama and yeah. hah dad's really point blank straightforward luh! and uncle larsen was really, hah, funny. im also really really glad to still be alive cos my sisters are really really really reckless drivers. my heart was in my throat alr. lol(:

no more alr lo! dtt how how?! you have to be very very patient with me tmr okay. haha(:




wincing in pain with every step i take;


---10:11 PM---

Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Running

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

i was swimming and this song popped right in. haha havent heard it in eons! had a rather fascinating afternoon(: staring with wide-eyed fascination. blahahah!

im missing the word pompous, my all time favourite. no sleeep tonighty:/ we're gonna go seee some big birds fly again yo. ughh why's the flight in the weeee hours of the morning? bleahhh.


---5:14 PM---

Tuesday, October 02, 2007
muahaha! boy am i glad you're flying home sooon!(: even though its just for the short weekend. heheh.

shopping with my happy pill was all smiles and nth else. shopping spreee, waffles, yakkity yak, cofffeee and haha someone weird(: lunch was good. dinner was great. company was exceptionally amusing:D haha! lets go again soon alrighty. mohohoho!


---11:00 PM---

Stuck

I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

I ain't tripping
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

You've kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I've tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies

I ain't tripping
I'm just missing you
You know what I'm saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you.

will be home soon(: got the tickets already.


---11:08 AM---

Monday, October 01, 2007
yes no maybe?

whooo! i suddenly have the urge to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. someone go geddit! ahhha cos the copy i have really really sucks. bleahhh. oh well. i feel like ive turned into a tourist these few days. hahaha! singapore is kinda interesting actually. and being a student really rocks. haha! cos we get complimentary tickets and really cheap concession tickets(: there's been lotsa hustle and bustle up in there lately:/ its killing all my brain cells! rahhhh. btw, phy's house really induces funny and weird dreams. lol!

went to the doc with sis and he says ive got really strong heartbeats. mohohoo(: i should get back to swimming soon. havent swum since the sept hols. and its alr october! someone downstair's singing "red and yellow and pink and green. purple and orange and blue." lol! i just sang that song today! ahhha just too bad that there wasnt any rainbows in the skies. but the sky's really pretty tonight(: ahhha i wanna go watch the sunrise:/

a sneak peek ard the house tells me its home alone again. bleahhh! tired yet not sleepy. thinking thinking thinking is not a solution. try asking instead. you'll never know if you never try. conversations in e mind aint gonna help much either, cos you nv know wht e person's thinking of. blahh, i shall go to sleep. goodnight.

i dont know. can you repeat your question?


---10:35 PM---